Welcome to my bad mood

i am tired. how long can one person be tired for?
not sleepy.
worn out. exhausted. useless.
my brain is slow. everything is hard.
i am less anemic. less weak.
but i can’t think
but i can think
i can think good and hard about things for 5 or 10 seconds

i’m tired of this shit
things are too busy
i don’t know how to make them less busy
there is less work now
that is good. even if it doesn’t pay.
think, think for a minute.
don’t get sidetracked.
i can’t. i try and try.
i just type. i

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Quadruples Therapy

as k so eloquently put it… me, my partner, my former partner who used to also date my partner, and my former partners new partner, had a double date last night. at therapy. it is 5 years (almost to the day) that we have been trying to restore the peace.

i think maybe it was good. nice to meet the former partners new partner. she was very brave to come. i liked her.

we will all meet out in the real world sometime soon with a planned distraction and a time limit.

maybe it will be okay someday.

did i

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Donna Williams and some other like-minded folks have started a new website called Auties.org.

“Auties.org is a website to promote the entrepreneurial (self employment) skills of people diagnosed on the Autistic Spectrum world-wide and to provide links to Autie-Friendly businesses of various kinds.”

I particularly liked the ‘What is an Autism Spectrum Condition?’ explanation page.

I think this is a great idea and I would like to do my part in spreading the word. Visit the site for more information and links to ‘Autie-Entrepreneurs’ and ‘Autie-Friendly’ business listings.

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There is a young mourning dove perched on top of our curtain rod. Kito chased it in. There are feathers everywhere. I am not quite sure how to get it out. The front and back doors are open, and Kito is locked in the bedroom, but the bird is not moving. It looks like it is sleeping. I think I will try to chase it out with my bo. Sorry bird.

As it turns out, the bird is not at all afraid of me or my bo and I can’t bring myself to do anything besides tapping it lightly.

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I went to another autastics meeting yesterday in daly city. I liked it even better than the first one. It was a little easier to talk this time. Like last time, everybody was very nice. It still blows me away that there are so many people that are SO MUCH like me. For so long I thought there were none and that i was the biggest freak in the whole world. Suddenly, I am an aspie, crazily similar in so many ways to other aspie/autistic people, yet at the same time, we are as different from each other as all

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Green Day

Rocked! Hard. Me and the K’s saw green day last night at sbc park in SF. It was one of the best shows ever. Up there with the who and metallica.

They opened w/american idiot, ended the encore w/i walk alone, and filled the rest of the time w/high energy jump up and down rock and roll. I couldnt’ even stop jumping after the show was over! …AND there were awesome fireworks during and after the show. At one point, they got 3 folks from the audience to come up on stage and form a band. The people had to

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Sweet Tea

by marleykito

This is a poem from an “NT” to her Aspie partner

a sweet face
masks the pain
i can see
visibly, viscerally
synapses fire
and you tire
if i could
climb inside
i’d rewire
cuz i’m good at
the simple ones
that don’t require
or mambotigercss
here you lie
with your hand
on my belly
touch my soul
as you snore
next to me
honey b
are you

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Nerd TV on PBS

is broadcast television’s first entirely downloadable series, featuring PBS technology columnist Robert X. Cringely’s interviews with personalities from the ever-changing world of technology. The inaugural guest (last wednesday) was original Macintosh programmer Andy Hertzfeld.

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Firefox 1.5 beta 1

Firefox 1.5 beta 1 is available for download. Faster, better mac support, and more. But before you go rushing to download, keep in mind that it is beta software, and it does still have bugs. As they say on the site before you download it… “It might even melt your hard drive.” I don’t think that will happen, and I am using it right now (so far, so good), but don’t say I didn’t warn you.

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