chaos is in me
one step closer to the edge
trying not to fall
chaos confuses
wraps word order wrong and fails
to stop the echo
chaos surrounds me
closing in fog and laughing
when i disappear
I started writing this post for my birthday on January 28, 2020. Apparently, the year started out hard and I didn’t want to write about the hard things. The rest of 2020 took a turn for the ‘Hold my beer, early 2020’ and it got too hard to write about any things. I have been …
I am in a bad place. Not the worst place by far, but it keeps getting worse. My brain is starting to shut down and it is getting harder to come back. It happens whenever there are too many things. It has always happened, and no matter what kinds of medicines I take, or therapy …
I turned 50Â on January 28th. It was a pretty exciting birthday for me. For a person who didn’t think they would make it to eighteen, 50 years old feels like an achievement. 18Â seemed like one too, but more like one that was achieved by luck. 50 took a lot more work. In honor and remembrance …
chaos is in me
one step closer to the edge
trying not to fall
chaos confuses
wraps word order wrong and fails
to stop the echo
chaos surrounds me
closing in fog and laughing
when i disappear
I got interviewed by Eric Barnes on Laravel News about the Baltimore Laravel group and other web development related things 🙂
Wish I could take your pain away Wish I could take you out in the sunny day Wish I could make you stronger So you could come home for longer Wish I could hurt instead of you I’d give anything to make that true Wish I could hold you and make things right Wish I …
Craziest year ever. Not even sure what to write about it. 2014 looks to be more of the same. So many things. K’s dad. I hope he has a better 2014 than 2013. Same with K and her mom and her sister, L. And me. Too many things have been going on for so long, …
WordPress will be 10 years old on May 27th, 2013. Hard to believe it has been so long! Dougal Campbell had a great idea to start the WordPress 10th Anniversary Blogging Project. I have been using WordPress since v 0.71 and it is still my favorite way to build a website. What better way to celebrate …
If I had to pick one word to describe 2012, it would be ‘busy’. If I had to pick 2 words, they would be ‘too busy’. Living in Baltimore is very busy. I don’t think I will ever get used to it. Work was way too busy for a while. It is great to have …
Once again, it is Autistics Speaking Day. I want to write a post about the positive aspects of autism, but at the moment, it is hard. It has been almost 8 years since I found out that I was autistic. At first, it freaked me out because there is no cure. Eventually, I started to …
By Karen Hillman Note from LB: This article was originally published on the Autism Women’s Network website and is reprinted with permission from the author. It is about Karen’s and my move here last year from Oakland, CA. We are both still learning to adapt to our busy lives here, and for the most part, we have both managed …
I remember when I was younger, thinking that 45 was very old. The past few days, I have been thinking about what it means to ‘get old’. Is 45 old? 40? 65? 85? Does it matter? I don’t think it is a bad thing, and considering the alternative, it is an awesome thing! I am …