alone all the time
i wish i knew how to be
different than i am
i can not think in straight lines
thoughts crash and I fail
trapped inside my mind
three hours to get my shoes tied
i don’t know how to join in
i hope i can talk
mind jumping around
need to stay focused
stuck inside the house
too confused to get away
not living the dream
so much work to do
a thousand steps to get there
start with the first one
working at all hours
highly marketable skills
still hard to get by
Wish I could take your pain away
Wish I could take you out in the sunny day
Wish I could make you stronger
So you could come home for longer
Wish I could hurt instead of you
I’d give anything to make that true
Wish I could hold you and make things right
Wish I was there with you tonight
Hope you are having a happy day
I’m there with you, in spirit anyway
You are the best mom, I know it’s true
Can’t wait ’til the next time that I see you
Craziest year ever. Not even sure what to write about it. 2014 looks to be more of the same.
So many things. K’s dad. I hope he has a better 2014 than 2013. Same with K and her mom and her sister, L. And me.
Too many things have been going on for so long, I can barely remember what is like to be able to think clearly. Tired of being so confused and tired all the time.
It is not all bad. There are breaks. Every now and again, K and I get a day, or part of a day, off. I get more breaks than K, but when she is not here, I tend to spend all my time working. This year, our definition of “a break” has changed. We were noting that having some time to scrape the ice off the car and shovel it out of the snow now feels like a break.
Work has been crazy for both of us. Pretty sure that my business will make more money than last year. Happens every year, but I still end up working very many hours for very little money. So little that it seems like madness to keep going year after year, but I am short on other options. It is very hard for me to work a “real job”.
I know my job is a real job. I know that I am good at what I do. I work very hard. My web development skills get better all the time. Having a screencast addiction helps.
But my business and organizational skills are almost non-existent. When you run a business, those skills are at least as important as being able to do your job. Maybe that is the difference between a hacker and an entrepreneur.
My gross income this year is about $5K over the 2013 poverty level. This is due to a combination of undercharging, not charging at all, and a near complete lack of project management skills.
At this point, after reading approximately a million articles about project management, business organization, and every other possible subject that may be of interest to freelancers and small business people, I am pretty sure that these are skills that I can not acquire. I need my ever elusive “Magic Business Partner” more than ever.
- On 2/4/13, Karen and I got legally married, 13 years to the day after our first date!
- In May, we had a great party with our families and friends at the Ottobar to celebrate our marriage. Special thanks to Chuck for making everything so awesome, to Colleen for making the best cake ever, and to everyone who came to join in the celebration, especially my parents who came all the way from Florida for the occasion.
- Every time that Karen and I have gotten to spend time together relaxing and/or having fun. They are few and far between, but nothing is better.
- Another year with Nikkyo and Buster.
- In July, I got a black belt after doing martial arts for 16.5 years.
- K’s cousins came for a visit from Canada. Very nice to see them 🙂
- Several social occasions with new and old friends. Special thanks to Kim, Tarun, Lisa, and Dave.
- Co-working at Betamore for many months. Met some great people and got to go to the harbor almost every day when the weather was good.
- Lease on my computer ended and started a new lease on a maxed 15″ Macbook Pro retina. It is awesome!
- Learned Laravel. I have been learning Laravel for over a year. I will continue learning it, but I actually know what I am doing now.
Favorite Apps of the Year:
- Once again, Komodo IDE tops the list.
- iTerm2 – Terminal replacement for mac
- QuizUp – Very fun mobile trivia app.
- Bejeweled – Still an awesome distraction and mind-numbing tool.
Happy New Year everyone!
WordPress will be 10 years old on May 27th, 2013. Hard to believe it has been so long! Dougal Campbell had a great idea to start the WordPress 10th Anniversary Blogging Project. I have been using WordPress since v 0.71 and it is still my favorite way to build a website. What better way to celebrate than to write a WordPress post?!
When I first started using WordPress in May 2003…
- I was 36 years old
- I lived in Oakland, CA with my partner Karen
- I had been building websites for 8 years
- I was an open source PHP/MySQL software junkie
- My business site was built using a Template Monster template with a Flash header (shhhh… don’t tell anybody) , which was soon to be replaced by Mambo
- This website (formally called LBnuke) was built with PostNuke, a PHP/MySQL content management system that was forked from PHPNuke
- I had played around with b2 (project that WordPress was forked from), but liked PostNuke a lot better
- I was in love with CSS
- I was a beginner PHP programmer
Since I started using WordPress…
- I moved to Baltimore and legally married Karen
- I have been building websites for 18 years
- I am still in love with CSS
- I am a much better PHP programmer
- I do a lot of custom WordPress development
- I went to the WordPress 1.5 Upgrade Party at Matt‘s apartment in San Francisco and he helped me fix my “theme” (aka index.php and stylesheet in root directory)
- I have been to many WordCamps
- I am still an open source PHP/MySQL software junkie
- I converted my business site to WordPress in 2007
- This website was converted to WordPress in 2006 after being inspired at the first WordCamp in San Francisco (and being jealous of how easy my clients’ sites were to manage compared to my own)
- I have occasional flings with Drupal and have a huge crush on Laravel, but still like WordPress best for most sites
- 90% of my client sites are built with WordPress
I am hugely thankful to Matt Mullenweg and all of the other people who have helped develop WordPress over the years, and to all of the awesome people that I have met in the WordPress community!
There will be plenty of celebrating going on all around the world. Find a celebration near you!