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IE7 Beta 1 coming this summer — 04/25/2005

IE7 Beta 1 coming this summer

Finally! Microsoft is moving towards a more web standards compliant browser. The first beta release of Internet Explorer 7 is expected to be released sometime this summer.

Here’s the latest news from the IE Weblog:

  • Support the alpha channel in PNG images. We’ve actually had this on our radar for a long time, and have had it supported in the code for a while now. We have certainly heard the clear feedback from the web design community that per-pixel alpha is a really important feature.
  • Address CSS consistency problems. Our first and most important goal with our Cascading Style Sheet support is to remove the major inconsistencies so that web developers have a consistent set of functionality on which they can rely. For example, we have already checked in the fixes to the peekaboo and guillotine bugs documented at positioniseverything.net so use of floated elements become more consistent.

Update: A year and a half later… never happened. Maybe it never will.

haiku haiku — 04/22/2005

haiku haiku

it means to repeat something

why am i writing?
sudden interest in haiku
what’s going on here?

my head is too full
i need to let some words out
to make room for more

it clutters my mind
this thing that is the screaming
i am tired of it

in a flash i am
no longer me, but aspie
confused; there’s no cure

i can’t remember
what i was doing just now
my mind is broken

i don’t want to test
i want to learn karate
without any stress

i know this is gay
but it’s a fun way to say
what gets in the way

thinking in numbers
it’s fun counting syllables
words are what comes out

this story is done
coming out of my fingers
it’s an accident

repeat echolalia

Adobe to buy Macromedia — 04/19/2005
Diversion — 04/15/2005
April is Autism Awareness Month — 04/13/2005

April is Autism Awareness Month

Who knew? The things you learn when you suddenly find out you’re autistic! It’s been about a month now, and I’ve been on a wild rollercoaster ride trying to process all that I’ve learned and experienced since then.

It is amazing to suddenly have access to so many resources to get information, not to mention a gigantic community of people to meet. It still doesn’t seem real. A month ago, I had no idea where to find information and was convinced that there was no one else like me anywhere.

As of now, I’ve met 3 other aspies. ‘Aspies’ is what many people w/asperger’s syndrome call themselves. It’s taken some time for the word to grow on me, but now I kind of like it.

The first woman I met was very nice and I really enjoyed hanging out with her. We met at a cafe, and talked. She brought me some printouts with very helpful information. We brought computers in case of social awkwardness, which was surprisingly at a minimum. She shared things she’s learned over the years about dealing w/asperger’s. The thing that stands out most in my mind is that she said that if there was a magic pill to cure her, she wouldn’t take it. That completely blew me away! My whole life, I’ve been looking for that magic pill! I’ve heard of other aspies who do not want to be “cured”, and others still who think “regular” people are the ones that need curing. It made me question whether I really would take the pill if I had it; if I really would want to be “normal”. Truth is, I don’t know.

Every aspie is different. Different interests, different symptoms, different personalities, etc. Even the similarities are about being different. The list of possible symptoms is long, and not all aspies have all symptoms, but everything on the list is something that makes people “different”, odd, weird, freaks. Whether it be social or communication differences, unusual body movements and tics, sensory processing problems, or anything else, it makes for people that don’t fit in to “normal” society. Some people can learn to adapt, some never can, and others never want to.

Last week, I met a woman and her son who both have asperger’s. They were also very nice, and we had a fun night. The woman is able to work a regular job, and take care of a house, and of her family. It takes a toll on her, more than it would on most people, and it is inspiring to see what she has accomplished under such challenging circumstances. Her son was a lot like me, especially when I was younger. Everything from the way he talked and played video games, to the way his head moved and how he kept his coat on. I especially enjoyed the character generation tips for kotor II.

Meeting these people, and knowing there are many more, has been a dream come true. I can read and understand them more easily than I can most people that I’ve just met. It is okay to be socially awkward. It is okay to bring a computer and actually use it. It is okay to not be using every bit of energy I have trying to fit in and appear normal. It’s okay if I rock or space out or if my head jerks. It’s okay if I don’t respond right away. It is okay to be me.

I have only met 3 people so far, and I know that it won’t necessarily always be the same with all aspies I meet, but I look forward to meeting more people, and learning from them, and eventually helping the newbies by sharing what I’ve learned.


user registration fixed — 04/04/2005

user registration fixed

User registration appears to be fixed now. Please let me know if you have any trouble. After you register, you will receive and email with an automatically generated password. Use it to log in, and then click on ‘edit your information’ to enter a new password and any other info you like. Click the ‘save changes’ button at the bottom of the form to submit.