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I am too busy. I suck at being busy. It is my worst thing and it always ends badly. I am not sure how to not be busy. It is a vicious cycle. As soon as I start feeling better, I want to do things. All the things that I can’t do when I am …

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OS X Keyboard Shortcuts

cmd: key | shift: key | opt: key | ctrl: key Shortcut Description   General cmd-W Close Window (does not quit program) cmd-Q Quit Program cmd-C Copy cmd-X Cut cmd-V Paste cmd-N New Document / New Window cmd-O Open File cmd-S Save shift-cmd-S Save As… cmd-P Print cmd-Z Undo shift-cmd-Z Redo cmd-A Select All cmd-F …

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Recap

Things have been slowly getting back to normal (whatever that is). Both lumps are a lot smaller and I am not so tired anymore. I have even been able to work some. A nightmare has come and gone. My body and brain have been to all sorts of new places. Most of them sucked. I …

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Relief: The Photo

I am tired and weak and and I’ve never been happier 🙂 K took this picture yesterday at the Greek Theater where we were seeing Phil Lesh and Friends. I was too tired to even sit up for most of the show, but I had a great time anyway laying on the grass and listening.

Cat Scratch Fever!

I am going to be OK. I have cat scratch fever! Not lymphoma! I am so happy. Still in shock a little. My parents and Karen were all here when I got the good news. We had a happy cryfest. I am so happy. Did I mention that? Thanks to everybody for everything! Antibiotics will …

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on the edge of panic

i have been on the edge of panic for nearly 2 weeks now. ever since i noticed the first lump. there are things that help. sometimes ativan, but I like to leave that as a last resort because so many thing are going on in my body, it is already hard to keep them straight. …

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lump

I am terrified. There is a big lump in my neck above my collarbone and another in my armpit. Will get a biopsy on wednesday. doc thinks it is most likely lymphoma. i don’t know what to do.

Too Many Things

I am starting to wonder if it is possible for me to really have a “normal” life. Things are so much better than before and my meds are finally working again, but even though I can do so many more things now, I am realizing that my limits and tolerance are still pretty low. Things …

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