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Nikkyo

It is just over a month since Shiki died and I still cry every day. Not as bad as before; usually just once a day now. K got the sweetest stone in the whole world that we will use to mark the spot where we bury her in the garden. Neither of us is ready …

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Shiki

sweet bright eyes closed forever my baby is gone a sweet cat that was my best friend 14 years of days together she groomed me when i was sad. she groomed me this morning. before we put her down. scratchy tongue licking my head while i cried because i wasn’t ready to let her go. …

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Master Mary and Baby B

Baby B was born today! Woooooooooo hooooooooooooooo! I am so happy, I can hardly stand it. Hannah Audrey is her name 🙂 Congratulations Bri and Sarah! For those who are out of the Berkowitz family tree loop, Bri is my brother, Sarah is my sister-in-law, and Hannah is my brand new niece!

It has been a very intense day. Master Mary Davis Cates died this morning. Master Mary was an amazing martial artist, the highest ranking member of Cuong Nhu outside of the founder’s family, a hero of mine and many many others, and most of all, a wonderful magical woman. It is a very sad day for very many people.

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Shoe Blues

(insert blues harmonica riff after each line…) Me and K went to Skechers To get some shoes It was hard to find good ones And I got the shoe blues I tried on 5 different pairs But they were all wrong 3 hurt and one didn’t fit We were there for so long My mind …

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Breathing, writing, and panicking in no particular order

*****Disclaimer*****

long rambling and moderate panic to follow but i am okay now so please don’t call an ambulance 🙂 I will keep this whole post besides this disclaimer off the front page for that matter.

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Take meds or breathe?

Decisions, decisions. Where is the line between beneficial effects and intolerable side effects of medicine? I suppose it is different for everybody, but I am having a hard time placing it at the moment, or at least I was until I ended up in the emergency room on Tuesday.

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2005 :: The Ramble

I hope that 2006 will be a good year for the world and the people in it. I have been very lucky, and so far 2006 is no exception. Me and K started out the year at Bill Graham auditorium in San Francisco with Phil Lesh and Friends. It was SO GOOD! John Mayer played a set of amazing blues guitar. I know he was singing too, but it didn’t really register. I can’t even really remember what he looked like, but that boy sure can play guitar! And now… the ramble…

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Stones and Metallica

Things are good 🙂 My client site is just about done, my meds are stabilized for the moment, and the Rolling Stones and Metallica rocked last night! The highlight of the Stones show was when Mick and Lisa Fischer did a duet of Ray Charles’ “Nighttime is the Right Time”. I had never heard of …

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Take Some Deep Breaths

I decreased the dose of my old meds again recently, and I am having the very scary side effect of having trouble breathing. It is not new, but has gotten a lot worse lately. It is a side effect of the new meds. I get short of breath and light-headed until I can catch my …

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A little bit of heaven

Saturday was K’s birthday 🙂 We went to the Russian River to celebrate and got home today. It was so great. Fun, relaxing, magical. We got massages that rocked. Seriously deep tissue! I don’t really like those kinds of massages when someone is barely touching you. It feels like a tease to me. Just enough …

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Quiet Time

It is quiet here. K and B just went out to get a mani/pedi. I have NO work to do! Nothing is broken. Or hacked. Bills are paid. All there is to do is clean up for the party later. And then party 🙂 It is nice to have B here. Shiki is especially happy. …

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Hacked :(

I woke up this morning to an email that my business site was hacked with a malicious javascript that affects (what else?) internet explorer. I removed the code and alerted the hosting company so that they can make sure the entire server is clean. As far as I can tell, everything is ok now, but …

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Welcome to my bad mood

i am tired. how long can one person be tired for? not sleepy. worn out. exhausted. useless. my brain is slow. everything is hard. i am less anemic. less weak. but i can’t think but i can think i can think good and hard about things for 5 or 10 seconds i’m tired of this …

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Quadruples Therapy

as k so eloquently put it… me, my partner, my former partner who used to also date my partner, and my former partners new partner, had a double date last night. at therapy. it is 5 years (almost to the day) that we have been trying to restore the peace. i think maybe it was …

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Bird

There is a young mourning dove perched on top of our curtain rod. Kito chased it in. There are feathers everywhere. I am not quite sure how to get it out. The front and back doors are open, and Kito is locked in the bedroom, but the bird is not moving. It looks like it …

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Green Day

Rocked! Hard. Me and the K’s saw green day last night at sbc park in SF. It was one of the best shows ever. Up there with the who and metallica. They opened w/american idiot, ended the encore w/i walk alone, and filled the rest of the time w/high energy jump up and down rock …

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